Today was a sad day. We had to euthanize my 15 year old dalmation Pepper. I can't imagine my home, my routine, my life without her. The vet said it showed our love for her that we would not allow her to continue suffering as she battled cancer. Did we let her suffer too long? Could she have lasted longer? Life and death decisions such as this one are always a weighty and traumatic undertaking. After the tears, the saddness and the lonliness have waned, there is just an empty feeling where I warm, fuzzy cuddle and kiss used to be. I miss her. When we got her, we knew we would outlive her and we had many glorious years with her. But it is still so hard to let go.
Ironically, we never got around to putting up our Christmas tree this year, and now I'm glad. Pepper loved Christmas, she knew which stocking was hers and she raced out Christmas morning to see what Santapaws brought her. Now it seems fitting that we are downplaying Christmas this year because our family is missing someone dear. We don't have children, so our pets become our children. I am dedicating the first post in my blog to my beloved Pepper - rest in peace sweet, sweet girl.
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